Happy New Year everyone!
I stayed home celebrating last night. I was not the best person to be around and I didn't want to be a negative person if I had gone out.
Most days are not good and I'm always dealing with inner demons but I just didn't want to ruin everyone else's night.
Most people say they understand and I really don't think they do. This is a constant battle for me everyday! It's hard for me to be positive when everyone puts me down.
So I stayed in and watched NCIS.
It's not just one person either, it's everyone. I honestly feel like no matter what I do, it's never good enough and the other person thinks they are way better than me!
It's a hard battle and it sucks to be dealing with it everyday.
So hoping to figure out a way to be positive and keep being positive.
One positive is my tattoos that I have. They are the only thing that makes me feel beautiful! That is the only time I feel beautiful and it's why I spend lots of money to get them!
This is what makes me feel beautiful